September 2025

That was easily the most insane morning in a while. Waking up groggy as all gourd, sad my bed is empty. Go to check my emails and I usually do and BAM, provisional date offer for bottom surgery, for JANUARY. I'm getting this thing chopped off!!!! Now I just gotta get hotel and flights booked, along with organising all the entry requirements. I think there's a healthcare based visa from memory. Gonna be a challenge but one worth tackling. Throughout all this, once I decided this was the path for me I haven't had any doubts. I've had fears, concerns, but not doubts about this being what I need

Thank fuck it's payday god DAMN! had about a quid in my bank yesterday, gonna try and be really careful with my money this month, despite really wanted to build a NAS.

GF is heading back home after 3 weeks and I think I'm really gonna struggle heading back home to an empty flat. It just feels colder, less vibrant. It all sounds so cheesy but god life is easier to do day by day with them around (even if my wallet doesnt think so :P)

Went out with my gf today to visit a lovely tearooms and go to a bookshop. Had a really nice cream tea along with amazing views. At the bookshop wandered around, and as is normal for my GF they bought like 4 books, while I got a cooking book and a really cool book called "Night Sky Almanac". It describes the state of the sky for each month, lists celestial eveents like meteor showers, and eclipses, very pretty and info packed book.

A new day wow, this has never happened before. I used to just live the same day ad infinitum, never changing, never learning, trapped...

But enough with that, I had biscuits for breakfast, yum

And no not what the yanks call biscuits, though those are pretty good :)

Well I won't lie, funny that that guy died. I won't pretend to mourn a man who wanted people like me dead, who pushed hate as a career.

He was a hateful spiteful man who wanted rape victims to deliver a foetus to term, and said he would force his 10 year old daughter to do the same

He claimed empathy was a new made up concept, something that he didnt want to practice.

He wanted gay people stoned to death, and wanted worse for trans people

I'm not the type of person who would be able to pull the trigger, but I won't pretend that the news of someone else doing it wasnt good news

The media is loving the oppurtunity to use this event to villainize people like me, ignoring all the other instance of violence against us by them. They want to spin it as the left being the aggressors to push more extreme controlling laws and policies into place.

I have MADE this site with BLOOD, SWEAT and crying a lot :)
Saying that though, not really sure what I put on here? Hmmmm...

Guess I could talk about general life atm? Silksong is fun! But please... please Team Cherry, remove envrionmental 2 mask damage, I am DYING.

Work is alright, though stressful, big ongoing project that keeps getting held up by the infrastructure guys, guarentee this would be sorted if they gave me access >:(

My GF has been staying with me for almost 3 weeks now I think. I'm really relieved at how natural it feels, and how easy it is to have them around and love them <3

Life overall is alright, but I'd be lying if I wasnt at least a little bit stressed about money. SRS surgery will take a majority of my savings but I don't know how much, so the amount of savings I really have is ephemeral. How much could I put towards a mortage, how much could I try and invest in stocks without ruining my chance at surgery if it all goes tits up?

Being trans in general is stressful, I'm needing to constantly take note of how many doses I have left, I have to always be planning when I could do my blood test. Sure would help a lot if my GP surgery did shared care, but alas, I simply have to manage it all, and pay out of pocket for everything